Wednesday, July 18, 2012

The Girl that feared her past ...

Sometimes I feel as if I’m standing on a cliff. Just one small push should just do.

They say that life isn’t easy. I agree. Life for me isn’t so easy. No matter how hard I try, I always end up falling. But who will pick me up? And tell me that everything will be alright?

I grew up in a world where words were only words. They had no meaning. But what kind of child lives in this world? I did. I grew up with only just my independence. My achievements. My struggles. No-one to help but me. No matter how much I wanted to change my life, it just seems like I’m back to square one again.

Everyday seems like the same. The fake smile. The fake laughter. The fake lies. The same screaming and yelling. The same things over and over again.

You say you want me to fall in love. Right? But how can I? When I never knew what the meaning of ‘love’ was. They say that a child’s experiences help to mold them to be who they are. My experiences became my scars. The scars helped me understand what kind of world I lived in. My scars became my fear.

What I’ve learnt over the years is that no matter what I do, or who I become; I’m nothing but a person with a fear of her past. Haunt me as much as you can, cause this girl only needs a simple push to end everything ...

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